Any of a range of psychological disorders characterized by abnormal or disturbed eating habits.
About the book
"I've Seen So Many Bathrooms" is an experimental publishing which aims to reach every segment of the society in order to make people understand the mental state of Eating Disorder patients.
Apart from making us visible, this diary is a confession for me and makes it open what I’ve done in these two years that I’ve completely isolated myself from my environment and struggled with ED.
About the author
I was a completely healthy child but growing up with a society full of diet culture caused me to become self conscious and desperate. In 2018 I started the year with the same resolution as I had done for years “I must lose weight.” That year I ate as little as possible, exercised for hours on end and cut myself off from friends and family that tried to prevent the disaster I was running towards at full speed.
Eventually after losing half my body, I was diagnosed with several EDs. I was terrified but more than that, I was confused, I was a ball of emotions and I didn’t know which way to turn. The day I realized I fear death more than weight gain saved me. I decided that I had to change and committed myself to living a life without my eating disorder. I am on recovery since December 2020.
The mission
In journaling, I’ve been able to put some of the chaos in my mind that drives my disorder, to rest. It has allowed me to recognize patterns of thoughts and behaviors that have been driving and keeping my ED alive. And now, It’ll gave my environment an insight into what I was experiencing.
This is the journal I wish existed when I was curled up on the floor, with a BMI of 14, thinking things would never, ever get better.
This is the journal I wished existed when I was trying so hard to shrink myself into nothing. This is the journal the world needs.
Contact
For more information or to order books please send an email.
For those who wish to know more, or engage with recovery content I have an Instagram @ihaveseensomanybathrooms where I post my experimental photographies.
If you are in a crisis you can find helplines from World Eating Disorder Day.